Lamentations

Father, i don't want to be labeled as a backslider. Its more painful than being an actual backslider.

Where is the bride you are have chosen? Where is the love? The encouragement? Is talk and spiritual pride all that is left in your church?

Is there a place for me in your church Lord!!!!????
If all there is in your church are rules and standards, pride and just talk with no power that is tempered in love... ... i feel cheated!

Defend me God please. Defend me from slander and lies, protect me from labels and discouragements. Take away the bias, take away the judgments.

Let me hide in you, let me hide in your tribe that really shows love and acceptance. I am just a man, if anything, one of the most imperfect of men. But Lord, all these years of being misunderstood and labeled, being made to feel insignificant has been too much to bear. Help please. Let me be loved and let me show love.

Significance

Significance.

Been reflecting alot on this word lately.

I have come to realise that in this world, all of us are finding for significance. I guess it boils down to us fighting to make sense of our lives.

We can't stand that we have no eternal meaning in our lives, that when we die, whatever we have done,it is meaningless, because, when we die, what is there?

How does one live through his life feeling insignificant? Its a sad life.

People try and earn more money, so that maybe, by having more wealth, there would be more significance in his life.

People try to be popular, also for the same reason, to feel that they are significant

Others get married or find a partner.

Some do charity and good works... ... all in a bid to make themselves feel that their existence in this life has significance.

I'm learning that it is impt to let ppl around us know that they are significant. A praise, a smile, a call. I want others to know that they are significant. More so, because everyone is God's creation, made in His image, that they are significant, to God and therefore to me.

I have trouble feeling significant very often. Call it low self esteem, but i think we don't let others know that they are significant very often.

Like when a parent berates a child, or when people are ostracized.

Just thoughts...